A lot has changed in my life as of late. Some changes I am at peace with while others I have still yet to digest. Regardless of how I feel about any of it, change happens, and will continue to happen despite my best efforts to prevent it or guide it to suit my own desires. My mom always told me to understand and accept the things I cannot change while having the courage to change the things that I can.
I don't know if I have ever been good at that, simply accepting when I feel that a situation should or could be different. Rather, I always step out on faith and attempt to make a change whether its out in the world or in myself, even if I fail.
Even if I fail I know I made the attempt, put in the risky effort, to do something. In the end it doesn't matter if my optimism was fruitless as long as I didn't let life harden me enough to lose hope that things can change if you take a risk and take a chance.
Along the theme of change, this blog was in need of a change. Wordpress is a great cms but it became too rigid for my taste. Every new post looked just like the one before it. After a while staring at the same design time and time again made blogging boring. Eventually I stopped writing altogether. But life has brought me back to writing, to blogging online, and journaling with a pen and paper. Not much else comforts me these days.
I was never really the type of writer that carries around notebooks to jot down ideas or lines that come to mind while walking through the grocery store or sitting at a cafe sipping coffee while waiting for a friend. But lately, my tiny squared moleskine has been my refuge. It doesn't judge or tire from listening to the same sad story over and over. It is always there wide open and waiting for whatever it is I have to offer.
So cheers to writing, new beginnings, and hope, always hope.